May 2, 2005
[ [ am no longer H E R E ` ` * ] ]
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 07:41 pm
Mar 21, 2005
___ . [[ ii wannarh miit perfectiionn ]] `` x .
MIA-ed fer a very long while yeahs? well. am baq now. so many changes hav occuredd. fate. destiny. karma. or wadever eu call it. contemplated closing this blog initially. designed a banner proclaiming dath "This Weblog Is No Longer In Use" but . . no matter wad shiat life, or rather peepos iin eurh life, deals eu wiv ; life still has to go on yeah? so thats why, here ii am. baq in actiion. iin the siege fer perfectiion. am designing my blogskin-to-be right currently. so meanwhile, jst gotta lunn the images beside fer awhile longer.
The Final Letdown - The Break Up
so much to saee, butt whre do ii start ? would eu even listen iv ii spoke from the heart ??
iits simple things dath keep us apart . no matters, ii dunn wannarh kkaiire bout iit no more.
iits pastt and iit overr.
buabuaiis.
\\ 11o9o4 - 14o2o5 // </3
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 03:56 am
Feb 12, 2005
___ . [ [ spare mmie tha ironyy ` ` * ] ]
ii noe. iit has been ages siince ii last bloggedd. well, ii diid menshenn ii aiint gonna update as frequent bahhs. bcus; iish ii haf predictedd. =p
aniwaes, ystd baii niann ggo ciinn hse. gamble gorrt $$ take. hai hao bba. atmosphere veryy funn. all tha jokers+lamers. esp fiona, she laff till sho kongbu blardii contagious seh. burtt den, one byy one all go off le den no kaki lorrs. rinez andd mimii went off tuhh mimii de aiyii jia. hoho~ mah dearest kingkong and queenkong. oh-so-adorable nehhs~ leen wenna zoo wiiv calviin dey all so no come. saddedd =( spentt tha nytt lamiin andd crappiin awaee~~ denn ciin told mmie gorrt xinshii sho ii thon over tuhh peii mah baobeiix kiaoka babyy. *unemployment rawks yea?*
denn todae we two piinkkiie siao loe~ gonna ggo gaii gaii. hehes. funn funn funn. ii wannarh bbe happy lyke diis ferheverr~ dunn wannarh kkaiire boutt dath bboii. ebrytymm wannarh fiind hiim till sho *biiangz* lyk fiindiing hay iin needelestack wors , norrt tha other waee roundd. *bwg* tml vdae nehs. workk sucks~ hrmpf~ (( >.< )) oO* dunn wannarh sae liao la. ii dunn kkaiire eu~
happy vdae ebrybardii~ mayy iish dae brg happiness tuhh eu and eurh lovedd ones.. .
sii daniel. happy vdae. happy 14th feb. happy 5mths3dys. ii lurfe eu.
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 08:30 pm
Feb 1, 2005
____ . [ [ shaggedelicc mmuii ``* ] ] ____
*sweet fulfilments* haf editedd mah marquee displayy thgiie at tha bott right hand cornerr. yeaps~ dath thgiie below mah taggiie. had nothiin tuhh ddo denn ii was missiin mah boii badlyy sho der ii was thinkiin bout tha past memoriies. *smiiles* still miissiingg hiim freakinn much tho. *lols*
aniwaes, aint gorrt much tuhh blogg about. am meetiing mah baobeiix rinez later. iits her off day so we're gonna crash town. probly gettiin mah angkong later. freakiing rinez iis gettin her secondd one.
(( - __ - )) "' she's addictedd? yeaps, mebbe. *lols*
well, signiing off here. takkaires peeps.. . *muackies*
lurffe iis wenn eu dun wanna sleep cus realityy iis better than dream
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 10:31 pm
Jan 27, 2005
___ . [ [ karnn nniie nna bbeh ccha0 chee bbaii ~ x``
*fuckstratedd*. thiis iis h0w ii feel.
fuckerr fakerr farkhiinn m0r0n jackass jerkk -fullst0p-
daths wad eu are, dammit.
ii haf hads enuf of eurh bullshiitt and farkhiin hyp0criites
whuttafarkh? were eu talkiinn ab0utt eurhself ??
tha w0rds eu sayy make mme snigger iin repugnance.
dunn bbe sucha ir0nic m0thafarkha~
burt denn agaiin, daths eurh ch0ice sh0.. ii dun kkaires.
perhapps eu haf eurh insecurities
perhapps eu neededd tuhh c0nvince eurhself eu arent tha bastardd dath eu raelii are
perhapps eu hadda bullshiitt s0 dath she'll bbe assuredd
burtt lykke ii menti0nedd, ii dun kkaire~
dun xia lann wiv mme.
dirtyy deeds oh dirtyy deeds will catch upp wiv eu.
wad g0es ar0undd c0mes ar0undd~
bbelieve iin fate andd karma.
farkedd upp hyp0ciite. fakerr. assh0le.
at leastt ii aintt g0rtt n0thiin tuhh hide fr0mm daniel.
wad abt eu bastardd~?
wad shittyy lurffe is dath?
c0uples shudd bbe truthful tuhh each otherr.
iff she dusn n0e, denn tinkk ab0utt wad eu may n0rtt n0e. *ttia0o*
ddarlinkk~ ii dun wanna bbe sur0undedd byy all these fakers of passi0n. deyy n0e n0rtt tha meaniing of lurffe ; sweet pure andd true. keep mme awaee fr0m demm wuntt eu? mah dearestt sistahz, stayy awaee fr0mm these creeps kae? dey aintt g0od news. pityy th0se wh0se partners haff let `em d0wn yet pr0claiim dath dey hate cheaterz.. wtf. these kaninas--justt epit0mes of desp0ismm underr tha fake facade.
iif eurh offendedd by thiis, dammit bbe offendedd. ii dun giff a damnn. tha factt dath eurh offendedd pr0ves sumthanng dusnt iit? farkheww.
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 11:41 pm
Jan 26, 2005
___ . [ [ ttake mme awayy - - - x ``
am feeliing kindaf better rytt n0ww. ii didn n0e whutt tha farkh wentt r0ng wiif mme recentlyy. kindaf g0rtt messed up iin tha head and well. ii guess sumtyms eu justt need tuhh bbe al0ne, tuhh s0rtt eurhself outt and everythiing. silence iis c0mf0rtiin. whatt wiif tha everydayy dath passes mme by, ii'm wall0wed upp iin c0nfusi0n. iits hard tuhh n0e wad eu need tuhh get. harder tuhh n0e wad eu've g0rtt.
take mme awayy fr0mm here, wunt eu please? awayy fr0mm here. away fr0m tha pastt. away fr0m
-him- sh0 dath we'll live iin our fairytale and ever afters.. . eu'd take mme away wunt eu?? ii dun wanna hurrt or bbe hurtiin n0 m0ree.. take mme away wiif eu int0 our lurffe sh0 endless nth can take us apartt.. . `
*sigh* aniwaes, t0ok sum pix of mme wiif sum of mah sh0pping g0odiies. retail therapy owaes helps a l0usyy m0od.
___ ppinkk t0pp fr0mm 77th street ] ] *
___babyd0ll t0p fr0m pepperplus ] ] ``*
aniwaes.. pard0n me uhhs. haf sum raelli imp sh0ut outz tuh make.. .`
ciindiee we pr0misedd dath iin our frenshiip and sisterh0od dath we'd bbear nn0 grudges. iif anythg went r0ng we'd s0lve iit outt and clear iit upp. eu sayy eurh piiece and ii say miine. cept dath iish tymm ders n0thiin tuhh bbe saidd. ii'm iin tha r0ngg. i dunn n0e wad had g0tten int0 mme. and well, tha restt iish hist0ryy. nn0 s0rries cus ii n0e dath eu hate s0rries. justt a simple fw0rgive mme. straiit fr0mm mah heartt. . .. `
daniel darliink.. . eu dd0 n0rtt understandd h0w much iit paiins mah heart dath ii'm unable tuhh sayy ii l0ve eu.. . and ii dd0 wanna sayy iit andd mean iit. ii wanna believe eu wenn eu tell mme dath iit will all bbe okae.. ii tryy tuhh believe eu.. burtt ii cantt. .and iits all cus of mme and mah stupiid self~ gimme a little tymm.. leave mme al0ne a little whiile.. mebbe iits n0rrt tuhh late.. ii wanna bbe tha one tuhh be there ferh eu lykke eu are ferh mme.. ii justt need tym.. c0nfusedd..`
leen th0 eurh s0undly sleepiing rytt n0w, anticipating eurh s0ccer match.. justt wanna lett eu n0e dath ii'm raelii thankfewl ferh eurh presence ryyt n0ww. ferh helpiin mme clear mah th0ts and ebrythangg.. . luf`ya ba0beiix..
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 09:53 am
___ . [ [ ii leave the world t0dayy x ] ] `
dammit. screwedd mah lyffe up biig tym. pure shiit.
iin any case, happy birthdaee tuhh *eu.. .
irreversible. irresp0nsible. irregardless of reas0n.
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 04:53 am
Jan 18, 2005
____ [ [ mm0re tuhh lyffe . . x . ] ] __
ii n0e dath ii menti0ned ab0ut n0rrt beiin able tuhh bl0gg dath often just ystd burrt hey, n0thinn tuhh dd0 rytt n0w.. s0.. here ii am.. aniwaes, was scrutiniziin muh bl0gg justt n0w andd ii'f realizedd ders a c0uple of stuffs ii'f g0tta ediit or add ... sh0 ii th0t ii'd just dd0 'em since ii'f g0rrt tym tuhh spare.. . clarrbinn has been p0stp0nedd.. s0 well, ii'm kindaf *bleahhs* rytts n0ww.. later` `
lurffe iish a manyy splendiid thiings
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 02:01 am
Jan 17, 2005
____ x . [[ t0o l0stt iin eu - - - ` ` ]] __
an0ther brandd new week of 2o05. . and dammit ii fell sickk.. justt great yeahhs? muh thr0at feels as th0 iit has been scrathedd inside outt.. burtt heyy, ii guess iits all well w0rth tha screamiing and cheeriing ystd. . ii cant believe iit.. . singap0re w0n tha tiger cup .. . weeweets~
aniwaes, didd ii menti0n ii'm n0 l0nger situatedd ar parag0n? yahs.. . n0 m0re.. . c0llectedd mah payy on saturdae.. . *l0ls* iish iis lyffe man... n0 m0re l0usyy management.. n0 m0re stuffy st0ckr0om.. n0 m0re unreas0nable cust0mers.. n0 m0re chernaine blah-blahiing mme tuhh death.. did ii menti0n n0 m0re l0usy management dath dusn all0cate eurh c0missi0n accurately..? yeahhs. as i was sayiing, nn0 m0re l0usyy managementt.. .
unempl0ymennt culdd n0rtt taste anyy sweeter den iish.. .
hmms.. pretty much upp tuhh n0thiing latelyy.. been busyy slackiing and enj0yiing muhself silly.. ii mean tha truth has justt startedd tuhh siink iin dath ii maybe gettin back mah 0's result anytime next m0nth kindaf gets mme edgyy.. especially wen ii tink back on all tha dumb reas0ns ii gave ferh science, all dath last minute w0rkiing fer maths.. and hu culd fergett wad ii babbledd on-andd-on ferh muh humans.. jeez.. s0 might as well enj0y and sav0ur each m0ment ii haf n0w in case.. *falters* ... . on dath n0te, ii think ii aint g0nna update as frequent yeahhs.. .
justt n0w wenn ai*ai called mme, iit was kindaf a "return of tha hai si langg" epis0de ferh a m0mentt.. suddenly talkedd b0utt dat slutt and den he was naterrin on and on ab0utt her beiing all *cens0red*
did kindaf crack mme up th0 esp tha part ab0ut oil burstiin frm p0res.. *l0ls* weii, eu dun sh0 badd le la.. eu sayy peep0 until lidat *omg* wad am ii g0nna d0 wif eu..? *l0ls*
aniwaes, l0okiin f0rward tuhh tmr's clubbinn sesh wiif rinez andd ciin.. partyy tymm.. *yay* still missing leen l0ads th0.. ba0beiix, mish eu missh euu~ weekend n0rhx.. haf a kindaf tight planned schedule iish week burrt ii n0e i'mma lurffe iit th0` cus well, g0nna spend iit wiif mah l0ved peep0s.. sweet~ *l0ls* gtg`
tha hartt bbeats faster wenn iit beats ferh an0ther andd miine beats s0lely and only ferh eu
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 03:33 am
Jan 13, 2005
x. - - tha 0nlyy c0nstant thiing iin lyffe iis change - - - x
been a while since ii last bl0gged yeahhs..? aniwaes,
all's well n0ww. . ii guess.. hmms.. updatedd mah wiishliist.. *l0ls* karnn waiit tuhh fulfill mah wishes.. esp tha piink highlights.. currently mah haiir iis terrac0tta-iish s0 i'd reck0n it'll g0 veryy well wiif sum vanilla piink.. vanilla piink.. mm~ s0unds s0 yummy as iif g0od enuf tuhh eatt... hehes. . hmms.. btw, i've lett muhh n0se pierciing cl0sed up. . cus well, iits justt kindaf tr0ubles0me and all..
wentt tuhh check outt iish new l.drake c0smetic place ystd after ii kn0ckedd off fr0mm w0rkk.. dey kindaf had iish n0-obligati0ns trial c0nsultati0nn.. sh0 der ii was nateriin on & 0nn ab0ut well, g0in under tha knife ferh d0uble eyelids, n0se j0bbs... den dey gave mme the blah-blahh ab0utt iit all burtt n0tt with0utt endiing iit wiif tha hinting dath
y0u're still gr0wiing, tuhh y0ung.. yadda--yadda.. .
bleahhs~ actually aint g0rrt much tuhh bl0gg ab0ut.. tha onlyy thg ii'm thinkiin of rytt n0w iis h0w muchh
ii miissh leen~~ *l0ls* burtt tuhh badd she cant peii mme rytt n0w cus she's stuckk iin sch0ol... ii hadd tha sudden urge tuhh w0rk0utt at tha gym iish m0rnin andd was ab0ut tuhh giif her a call burtt den suddenly recalled dath cvss iis h0ldiin her captive.. . *bummer* well... .
he has tat0oedd hiis neim deep withiin his skinn.. . she criies ferh his f0olishness... . ferh scaring hiis flesh, ferh enduriin such senseless paiin.. . ferh she n0es dath inkedd up0nn hiis chestt or n0rrt ; she wudd owaes bbe a partt of hiim ... . justt as hhe iis of herrs ... .`
ii n0e dath tymm can change n0thiin burtt tuhh make muh lurffe deeper ... .
___d0llmakeRr inc`` at 07:23 pm
